No Matter What

I would like to share these deep and powerful thoughts to you, which were given to me...

Love, life, the pursuit of happiness. The shredding of my soul blossoms a new beginning. Utter loneliness swarms me, entraps me. The lost intimacy of a companion. Stepping back from a great friend. I search daily for strength to pull me out of the deep, damp hole. I sit and hear darkness. I see silence encamped around me. My heart drops, and each pounding beat weakens. My thoughts are moving through my head like an undying twister. Confusion is the misty rain, sprinkling down on my body. The journey begins...

Deep within lies the one person that can free my imprisoned emotions. But how will I ever redeem the truth that makes me who I am without hurting who I am? Why me? Why have I been chosen to live the mysterious way that I do? Punishment is my forsaken reward in which I thrive off of. Someone has to be me, so why not me. A gentle love waiting to spring out to the surface. Barriers and walls built daily to protect my fears. Barriers that make me who I am. Someone special took pieces of that wall down with every heart-filled word. With every gesture of love and care. The walls were still there but became transparent. But still exists because of my fear...a society that grows with blinders on to the world. A society that looks without compassion to see only what it wants to see instead of looking within. 

A bird can walk in peace, but fly with fear. The right way is not always the best way. We are all born a certain way. We are given gifts which we sometimes don't like, but learn to appreciate. I have sat and pondered time and time again in my lonely hours. I have concluded that self-respect and self-love are a dominating structure in well being. Letting the barriers down allows me to breathe. Communication is by far the most important thing. Openness and honesty relieves me of my burdens. I believe that when you find happiness and joy, you should never let it go. You should never let that one thing or that person who brings it to you go. No matter how things turn out, the HEART, the MIND nor the SOUL ever let go of that joy. That moment, experience, and understanding will NEVER be forgotten and forever it has changed me to BE WHO I AM TODAY.